My journey to publishing

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my book list

I have been writing since I was little. I always had a diary and a notebook. I love to take notes and write poetry. I have written songs for my late husband, my children, and my current partner. I have created essays and short stories as well. Mostly I like to free write. I usually start my day with writing and it clears my head.

I process my thoughts and ideas through writing. I find that I can get my thoughts out better on paper than verbally, even though I love to talk. When I have hard things to say to people, I prefer to write it all out and share it with them then have a hard conversation.

Each time, after experiencing the loss of a best friend, an aunt, or my husband, I turned to writing. Keeping a journal helped me get through each day. I found joy in writing to my loved ones. I found peace in understanding my thoughts and emotions. I connected with my faith and acceptance of God’s plan through prayers.

I have many notebooks going at one time. Some of them are used daily and the rest at least weekly. I try to write a few pages a day with whatever comes through. I like to follow prompts and create lists too.

I think many people feel that they can not write because of their penmanship or spelling abilities. I think getting the words down on paper is what matters not how it looks or if it is even legible. I need college-ruled lines and a soft-cover notebook. I like to write with a black pen. My favorite one right now is either the Inc Forma or Inkjoy stick.

I keep a daily/monthly bullet journal; a yearly collection journal, a writing journal; a notebook for things I listen to, read, and watch; a junk journal to record random bits of information, and one about me. I often use college-ruled spiral notebooks for classes I am part of and videos or podcasts I watch to learn from.

In the spring of 2020, I published my first book, a memoir. Being able to go back through my journals is therapeutic and healing. Then a collection-style book of miracles I experienced in the spring of 2021 to share my closeness to God. In the spring of 2023, my third book, also a memoir, was released. This one too is taken from past journals. In 2023, I published a workbook, “My Spouse Died; Now What?”, a collection of my poems called “New Growth Poetry” and a journal, “Journaling for Holiday Grief”.

My published works are available on Amazon.

Not everyone keeps their writing. Some prefer to shred it, burn it, or throw it away. I find being able to go back and see how I was processing emotions and situations can be very beneficial. I sometimes fold over a page if there is something that I would not want someone to read.

It’s Okay to Be Okay; Finding Joy Through Grief

After unexpectedly losing my husband, I journaled to connect with my faith and to understand why God allowed this to happen. We had been married for over twenty years and were raising three teenage boys together. I wasn't sure how to get up daily; how to grieve while my children and family were also grieving; how to run a house; and to work a full-time job. Through a lot of prayers, scripture, meditating and writing, I found joy and acceptance of God's plan. I have discovered that I am stronger than I thought. I have learned to be a widow and a single parent. I hope to encourage others to find peace, joy, and happiness while grieving the loss of a loved one.

It’s Okay to Love Again

After losing my husband unexpectedly, I learned a lot. I learned about the difference between grief and grieving. I learned how to find laughter, feel joy, and experience peace. I learned about the love we shared and how that was never going to end. I learned how to be a widow and a single mom. I learned about my self-confidence and how to listen to my heart. But I also had a lot of questions. I spent time writing in a journal and communicating with friends all through the process of finding the answers. This is my story. This is my journey of learning to love again after losing the love of my life. This tells of how my heart grew a new space. I have not forgotten. I still have moments of grief. I am still learning and questioning.

A Cup of Miracles

Throughout my life I have been asked how I can believe in God or a higher power. I explain that I have experienced so many things that are coincidental and unable to be explained that there has to be something creating these events. I call the events miracles. I have written down things that happen to me that make me aware that I am not in control, things that bring me peace, and happenings that confirm my thoughts and beliefs. Not all of the miracles are religious or tied to faith or religion. Many miracles are teeny one second moments I pay attention to. Knowing that I am being cared for and watched over brings me peace and joy.  Many of the events listed have confirmed my belief that when a person dies, they continue to be a part of our lives. Some of the miracles confirm my faith in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Many of the miracles are things you have experienced as well. 


New Growth Poetry

As you go through life, there is always new growth and understanding of what is happening. As a baby is born, a student graduates, someone passes away, a child spends time with grandparents or someone falls in love, understanding and knowledge are gained.

I have always used writing as a way to heal, to express myself and to help me understand the growth that is taking place.

My Spouse Died; Now What?

Holidays without your spouse can be really hard and confusing. They can also be filled with love and joy. You can choose to celebrate how you have in the past or create new memories and traditions. Or you can do a combination of both.

This guided journal contains prompts for 12 days of journaling about your expectations and feelings about the upcoming holiday. Each prompt also contains part of my story of grieving through the holidays after the loss of my husband.

Journaling for Holiday Grief

Your spouse has passed away. Your brain may be struggling to keep track of all of the information coming in and knowing what information to provide to whom. You might not even know where to start. I have been there. I was blessed to have others help me get started.

This tool was created to help you have a spot to keep track of the companies you contact and the information they need or provide to you. It can be used for other loved ones as well, but the notes are related to my experience of losing my spouse.

Process your thoughts, dreams, ideas, and worries through journaling.